Better than Others

I have been to both University and College, and accomplished diddly squat. In my first year at college I saw a counsellor to see what type of profession/job I am supposed to or would like to have. I told her I would like to run a homeless shelter. Because I would instantly feel like there were people beneath me, that I had a 'one-up' on. Sad I know. I have grown and seen things much differently in the 6 years or so since then. Sometime ago, but not as far back as you would think, I went thru mini anxiety attacks whenever in public. I thought everyone was staring at me, I think it was just another variance of thinking I was less than them, that they KNEW they were better than me. To this day, I still feel more comfortable around certain groups of people because I know they are not judging, analyzing, belittling others. It amazes me when I hear a man talk about his house being bigger than his buddies, or a mother bragging that her child walked before another baby that same age. Perhaps I am reading a tad too much into it, even making absolutely no sense, it's just what I have observed, I'm done.

Toodles